Twilight

I always miss the time of twilight, and wish to have this time longer.
But, I know that I can have this time tomorrow again.

Pansy

I don't know why, but pansy somehow reminds me a monkey's face.

It's cute.

How

"I am here and exist."
How enigmatic.

Parallel Processing

I was talking to a friend, and was planning to write a post while talking other things.
But, I forgot.
It's hard to do things simultaneously.

No One

No one makes no mistake.

Am I right?

Like Her

One ideal of the ability of listening is "Momo." (Michael Ende)
If I can listen like her, it will be really great.

A Bee

Even a bee might have a mind.

The Arrow

I need to concentrate on the 'reality' in front of me.
Then, I shoot an arrow.

Without focusing, the arrow won't hit the target.

The Legendary Period

We are in the legendary period just like the people in a thousand years ago.

Can

If I think "I cannot do that," then I can't take even one step from now,
but if I think "I can do that," then I can take at least one step.

Then, if I continue taking such steps, someday, I can reach the state I want to be.

Five Minutes

I think that if one can listen quietly other's story for about five minutes, most of her worries about relationships will disappear.

Thoughts

So many thoughts pass in my head everyday, but the really really important thoughts are only a few.

Today

Today is not good for study.
I mean, I couldn't concentrate at all. What should I do?

Mmm...

Well, days like this happen.
(I know that I shouldn't relax too much, though.)

To Communicate Well

To communicate well with others, thinking about the level and the reaction of the person before you is very important.

I'm not good at this, but I am training.

Inspiration

Inspiration is in the stillness.

On a Bright and Clear Day

On a bright and clear day, I see many more colors than a normal day.
By reflecting the strong sunlight, each color starts standing out very vigorously, and I find myself in the world ten times more colorful than the other days.

It's really good to know that there are this many colors already existing in this world.

Tromboon

There is an instrument called "Tromboon."
It has really really funny sound. I heard this sound from the radio, and laughed. So I wanted to put a link to its sample sound, but I couldn't find any MP3 format sample, so the best I can do is to put the Wikipedia page which offers the sample in Ogg format. I hope your computer can play the Ogg format.
(Note: The sound is not beautiful nor cool, so you may not like it at all.)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tromboon

Empty

It's important to empty our head at times.
It invigorates our minds.

Gladiolus

I got gladiolus from my friend.
(She got them from her host-mother.)
With three together, it's gorgeous.

Be Patient

Until the time comes, one doesn't meet a person who has a big influence to her.
Until the time comes, one doesn't notice something that is important.
Until the time comes, one cannot convert ideas into action.

The phase I need now is
"Be patient."

Imperfection

When I can finally play the note that I couldn't play or the rhyme that I couldn't get, I feel great joy.

This is why (to find this kind of joy), we may born in imperfection.

Dracaena

I have three pieces of vase of lucky bamboo in my room.
I've kept this for about a year and whole that time, I've thought that this is a kind of bamboo.
But the day before yesterday, when I was searching about this plant, I encountered new knowledge!
"This plant is not bamboo at all, but the plant called 'Dracaena sanderiana'. "
I was very very surprised.

Getting new knowledge is always exciting.

(The picture is about a year ago.)

The Olympic Mountains

Today, I saw the beautiful mountains over the sea.
It's the Olympic Mountains in Washington, U.S.
From Victoria, when we have the clear air, we see this beautiful mountains, and we always love to see it.
That overwhelming sight always makes us think about the greatness of the nature.

The Church Bell

Today, I heard the peal of a church's bell.
I don't know which church, but there must be wedding or something.
I really like this sound.

Concentration

I feel really good after I concentrated well on my study.
I wish I'm always like this.
(Can concentrate well whenever I want)

Only the Place Changes

Now;
"She already went to Europe for ten times!"
"Really? Oh, I'm so jealous!"

In a hundred years (maybe);
"She already went to Moon for ten times!"
"Really? Oh, I'm so jealous!"

I guess, we will be not so different from now.

Music for Music

Someone plays loud music outside right now (10:30 pm). It's too loud and irritates me a bit, so I decided to play music too, but with a headphone.
Now, I feel much better.

Really

Sunset light shined from my back and there was a faint rainbow in front of me.
Today, I walked home with this scenery.
I felt really really happy.

Tuning II

I was thinking about the tuning of strings more deeply, and found another fact.
Tuning itself is not so interesting, because while I'm doing, I think that "It's not harmonized yet." Little by little, I tighten or soften the string, and when it harmonizes with another string perfectly, I feel great joy.

So, if I apply this to human relationships, it could be like this;
The two people who had fights, start to understand each other little by little, and find great joy when they make up.

What do you think?

Criteria

If I can keep the mind that feel beauty in flowers, cuteness in little bard's songs, and loveliness in babies, I won't derail the course.

Tuning

A string should not be too tight or loose, otherwise it won't harmonizes with other strings.
Everytime, I start with tuning and do practice, but even though I have a tuner, it's somewhat difficult to do.

But there is no tuner for tuning me in human relationships. No wonder there is always some disharmony with other people.

Came Back

I came back today at 2:05 pm!
It was a nice trip. I enjoyed the party at the close acquaintance's house. I want to visit them again, so I may go Vancouver in winter too.

Go to Vancouver

From early tomorrow morning, I'm going to Vancouver and spend two nights at there.
I think I cannot write posts for the two days, but I'll come back to Victoria on Monday afternoon, so after I come back, I'll write again.

(If I can, I'll write July 8th's post just before leaving.)

Thank you for reading my blog!

Need

To go ahead, We need reflection but not regret.

One but Different World

Everyone sees different things, so there is one world for each person.
When there are 6 billion people existing on the Each, there are 6 billion world existing all at once, but it's just like an camera angle; we are seeing one world from different positions.

"self"

There is a thing that I can completely obey existing in myself.
Not the self that I feel when I am obsessed with self-hatred, but the self that I feel when I am proud of myself.
I want to remember the latter "self" all the time.

Doodling

Today, I spent whole day at home, and did nothing.
It was so nice feeling!

Limit

There is no limit to imaginative power, and so it may also true that there is no limit to creative power.

Go on

I don't want to be trapped in one state, so I go on.

Like an Onion

It seems that there are many layers in the human mind like an onion.

Surprising

There is a thing that I haven't noticed even though I see it everyday.
A friend who sometimes visits tells me about it.

Be More Flexible

Regardless of other's opinions, I was just going the way I was.
But, I guess, I need to be more flexible.

Expectations

Sometimes, we face a perverse principle for expectations;
when we have high expectations, we get depressive results, but when we have low expectations, we get better results.

Or could I say like this?
"Sometimes, high expectations are welcomed by depressive results, and low expectations are greeted by positive outcomes."


(...I feel awkward making these sentences...)

May Be

There could be much deeper, higher, and richer world in existence in this reality.

The Steps

We can go up the steps slowly, so that we don't get tired.

The Things We Cannot See

There are things that we can see, and the things that we cannot see.
I image that the importance between them is higher in the latter.

Jealous

When we are not aware of other's effort, we get jealous.

Everything

Everything will become experience.

Riches

I'm sure that the thing that defines riches is our mind.

Study!

Right now, what must I do?

...Study!

One Way To...

A friend said that "When I'm cooking Takoyaki (octopus dumpling), I can clear my mind of clutter."
Cooking could be one way to clear our minds of thoughts.

(The picture is from Wikipedia.)

Observe

It seems that I'm observing other people's mind, but, in the end, I am observing my own mind.

Grow

I want to grow as much as I can.
However, when I'm tired, I can rest for a while.
Then, I can grow again.

Sanshin

Starting yesterday, I will be keeping my friends' luggage for two weeks.

One of them is an musical instrument called "Sanshin" from the place where I grew. Since I'm really interested in this instrument, I got the permission of playing it for few times. (This instrument is better kept by playing too.)

So, I'm a little excited.

Cloudy Day

The gradation of the leaves in a cloudy day appears more beautiful than it's seen in a sunny day.
Cloudy day is not so bad.

A Small Path

When I saw a small path between houses from a bus, I felt that I wanted to explore it.

It could be just a path that leads to another house, but a path that I don't know where it leads has some charm in it.

Stupidity

Even while I'm distressed, the sun shines, a flower blossoms, and the breeze blows.
Then I feel stupid and stop worrying.

Words

Words for blaming come up in my mind so easily, but the words for praising are not.
I want to train the latter one more.

Still

Only one fly drives me nuts.
So I still need to learn more about unshakable mind.

Quietness

Noisy refrigerator; I learned the importance of quietness.

Ageing

We are all ageing, but I think it's a good thing.
That's because until we age, we'll never understand elder's feelings.

Light Up

I guess, I don't need to be bright all the time,
because the forced brightness may not be useful.

...

(Oh, I feel I'm lit up a little.)

Diverseness

Each person vibrates in different things, but I think it's normal for this world and it's all OK.

Humming

Always, I want to be in the state of mind in which I can hum a song.

Learning

I'm sure that we can learn from every experiment.

Flows Like an Eternity

History:
Nobody knows when it begun or when it will end.

Cute Melodies

Who grants little birds such cute melodies?
...God?

One by One

Let's just think about the ones in front of me, then I guess, it's enough for now.

Basil

When my mom and aunts were here, they bought basil in a pot, and now, it's on my desk with other two pots (African violet).
Right now, it seems OK with no direct sunlight.
I hope they keep alive, so that I can keep enjoy it's leaves.

The Three Principles

The three principles between my daily life and study are:
1. I get sleepy when I start reading a test book.
2. Before a test, I get busy doing some other things such as cleaning my kitchen.
3. As a result, the things I really need to do will pile up, then I regret deeply.

I hadn't improved!

Image

When I was taking a nap on my sofa, I heard little birds' songs.
Then I thought that I actually live in heaven.

Dramas

I like seeing lights in each house at dusk because it invokes some images of families and their dramas.

I don't know any of them, but I know that people live in each situation, and try to live through while spending their daily life with laughing, crying, bristling, and many kinds of other emotions.
They are real ongoing nonfiction.

I hope every family to be happy...

Write Earlier!

I did it again.
I think, from the next time, I'll write a post earlier than the late at night.

The Expression

This is a famous bodhisattva statue from a temple in Kyoto.
I wish to have this expression on my face...

Small Clean Up

Today, I cleaned up all the dust around my computer desk.

Many lines of the computer were tangled up around that area, and it was very dusty. I wiped out all of those dust, and now it's very clean!
I feel so good.

an excuse

I was reading a text book, but from some point, I didn't proceed at all, then three hours and half passed without noticing.

In short, I went asleep while reading.
That's why, it's already Friday but not Thursday.
Oh, well.

Even This

The sun rises every morning and sets every evening.
Even this may be a miracle.

"Hope" Sound

Question: what is your image sound for "hope" ?
My answer is horn.

I don't know why, but when I hear horn, I often imagine an early morning or a new hope.

Eventually

Everything I need will come to me at the time it's needed.

IE7B2

I installed Internet Explorer 7 Beta 2 yesterday.
I feel it's a little faster than the old one, but for this Blogger, I still think Firefox is the suited one.
But I'll examine this new version more.
(It's fun!)

Wind Bells

Wind Bells: an instrument that converts "wind" to "sound."

I sometimes hear it when I'm walking down the street.
I like the way of thinking that creates musical instruments for just a wind.

Gentle Words II

Use gentle words to yourself, then use them to the other people.

From an Astrology

From an astrology, I am a "person who is usually bright and obedient, but in reality very stubborn."
I think that's so right.

Slowly

Don't be impatient.
We can go slowly.

Charging

Oh, no,
I don't know what to I do...

... I need to meditate.

(about thirty minutes passed)

Ding!
Charging Completed.

Now, first I need to make a phone call!

(-I'm not a Zen monk, but meditation has become an essential part of my life.)

A Mere Fact

I can eat normally.
Even this mere fact could be the source of jealousy for certain people.

Gentle Words

I wish I can continue writing gentle words that can make other people gentle.
Only by letting out gentle words can make this world more peaceful.

From Her (Host Mother's) Garden

Today, my friend brought me a bunch of lilac and lily of the valley.
Both their scent and shape give me a pleasure, and a friend who bring these to me is a treasure.

Even

Even the existence of "madness" is admitted among the people's mind,
maybe because we can forgive each other.

Heart Shaped Leaves

Two minutes...! I didn't make it.

Oh, well.

The weeds that sprouted out in my African Violet pot were Oxalis (I guess).
Does it have a bad effect on other plants?
Otherwise, I want to keep them because their hart shaped leaves are so cute!

Living Matters

When I close my eyes and listen carefully, I hear warbling from outside, TV sound from the next room, and the sound of closing a door from a corridor.
I really live surrounded by many living matters.

In Order to

I think that the flowers are created in order to make this world more peaceful.
What do you think?

Flowers

When I saw flowers that were in front of a supermarket today, I really thought that they were beautiful and that I wanted to have them.
This is the first time that I really felt this way.

I've been keeping my African Violets alive, but I didn't really want anymore plants.
But, maybe in some future, I start planting flowers in my veranda.

Timing

When the time comes, one will wake.
So, I guess, it's all right.

Mail Server

From yesterday, my Outlook Express has become strange.
I have to fix it.

From Above

Like flowers, there are so many types of people.
It must be really interesting if I could watch them from heaven.

Ate a Lot

My mom and aunts are going back to Japan tomorrow.
I ate lots of delicious food!!

Individuality

This world is so interesting that even a small tortoise has an individuality.

Aunts

My aunts are so talkative, but I guess it's the same in all over the world.

The Reason

Each person has its own reason.