Shortcomings

These days, I've been recalling many bad actions I did in the past.
I cry for these actions and regret why I acted like that. ...But I know that even if God allowed me to back in the past, without having this memory, I'm sure that I would act in the same way. With the mind which is less kind and tender, I would act in the same way.
So I need to be more strong, strong enough to overcome my fear for others and find a pearl in other people's mind.
I found some of my serious weaknesses and admit them. So I can try correct it. Once I started to correct these shortcomings, I know that they will gradually become smaller and smaller. They will become some of my small small shortcomings.

First...

"First refine yourself."
This wards is from a person I really really respect. I'll follow this words. Before accusing others, I'll try refining myself. Before correcting other people's fault, I'll try to correct my fault. There is infinite room for correcting myself.

The Weather

In these days, we have very good weather.
In "good," I mean fair weather. We really are influenced by the weather. Although we don't feel good for too much sun or too much rain, basically we feel happy when it's sunny, and we feel little sad when it's rain, and we are moved by a rainbow after rain. I expect this basic reaction for weather is the same for every country on this Earth.

Be a Master

Money is very important.
You can't live without money. But the most important thing is that you must not give the controller of your mind to money. I assume that almost all problems about money happen because of this.

Live Sounds

"Sound is the thing that we directory take into our body like food."
This words I found is from one speaker company's homepage. I mostly listen music from headphone, but I really like live music. Especially listening Japanese traditional drums in live is great. Drum sounds are directory taken into my body and I feel completely satisfied and refreshed.

Improving

My thinking language is still Japanese.
But when I think about a topic and contents of this blog, I sometimes think in English. It's an improvement. When I know that I improved, I feel great joy. One of the great joy that I still remember in learning English is this.
There was a poster advertising of private English school near my house. In that ad, one native English speaker(a woman) is asking, "Can you speak English?" then a Japanese man is answering, "Yes, I can." Although I've seen that ad so many times, I've never understood what they are talking. But one day, little after I learned "can" in middle school,I unconsciously look at the ad and I suddenly understood that simple conversation. Before that, the advertising poster never had a meaning to me. But suddenly it became a meaningful ad.
This experiment is one of the most strongest memory about English improving.
Improving is fun.

A Teacher

There is one teacher who I really really liked.
The teacher was my class teacher when I was grade 1 and 2. She was very kind and loved every child. As long as remember, no body in our class hated the teacher. The most memorable thing she did to us is that she gave each of us a small small hand size notebook the end of the school year. Each notebook is filled with her impression and messages to each student. I still have this notebook and when I look it, I'm always filled with love. Someone's strong love really works like a eternal heater that warm up our mind. I want to be like her who can give eternal heat to as many as possible.

Words

It's sometimes said that you shouldn't trust a person's words 100%.
But it's also true that there is no such person who is a 100% liar. Any word expresses some aspects of the person's personality, so any word is not a 100% true but it's also not a 100% lie. Personally, I trust other people's words fifty-fifty.
But it's always very touching if they are from the person's heart. I think words are the sounds that we should hear by our hearts.

"After You"

Today, for the first time I clearly showed "after you" to a person when we ride a bus.
I usually walk slowly and ride a bus after other people ride, but I've never waved a hand saying "after you" to other people. But today, when the girl who came after me gestured to me to ride first (I was looking a bus schedule on a pole), I noticed that she was actually standing nearer to the door, so I moved my hand to show "after you." We smiled, and she rode first.
I felt so good.
It's interesting. When you give heart to others, you also get it unlike money.

Gems

Everyday is a treasure of mountain.
So find the gems as much as you can.

Many Unknown Writers

These days, I often read articles that are expressing the writer's courage, gratitude, and love.
When I read these kinds of articles, I also become powerful, humble and filled with love. I hope I can express my gratitude more nicely.

A Great Pleasure

It's a great pleasure to know something new.
And I'm sure that there still be many more things which I haven't know. Then it's a great feeling to know that there still be so much great pleasures waiting in my future.

Respect

My ego (or say character) is so strong that even enable me to study abroad, but I've never been labeled as conceited.
This is only because I mostly respected other people. If I lose this attitude, I'm sure that I'll immediately surrounded by these kinds of words, "What an attitude." "You are too smart." or " Don't give me no lip!"
Respect other people not only creates good mood around you, but also it protects youｒself.

Viva Sweets!

I really like chocolates.
And I'm a strong fun of the "Homestyle two-bite brownies." I eat this brownies one each day, and I always keep having this. It's almost like an addiction. If I have very strong body and don't have to care about health at all, I'm sure that I eat this three to four every day. It's that tasty, and I'm very enjoying this.
Sweets only appears in the world which is enjoying peace and wealth. I really wish every country gives up creating arms, and starts creating sweets!

Before Meal

In Japan, we usually say "Itadaki-masu." before eating meal.
This traditional phase is translated in a web-based dictionary, "Let's eat." But I noticed that there is deeper meaning in this word. The first phase of this word comes from the verb, "itadaku" which means "I'll take it." Then, by this way, the phrase can be translated like, "Thank god, we'll take it."
Since I came to Canada, I've lost this tradition, but now I want to start saying again.

Change

If you want to change other people's attitudes, fist you need to change yourself.
You can't change other people's minds because you don't have the controller of their minds. Only you can change is your mind, and only in this way, you can influence other people's mind and can help them to change. We are living in relationships. So if you change yourself in a good way, it naturally influence others and could change them in a good way too.

Brace Up

There is nothing more important thing than working for Love.
I was lazy for these days, but I'm going to brace up again.

A Field of Alpine Flowers

Every person has its own color.
And I'm sure that for the eyes of god, it must be a beautiful scenery like a field of alpine flowers.

The Latest Visualizations

These days, I'm enjoying Windows Media Player 10.
I've been used Media player, but that was version 4 or 5. I hadn't updated the software may be about 3 years. Then when I looked a friend's computer's Media Player, I was so surprised for the latest visualizations. That was far beautiful than my old one's. After that I immediately downloaded the latest version of Media Player and now I'm enjoying music not only by hearing, but also by watching!
This is fun.

The Things That Is Far Beyond My Level

There are many books which is far beyond my level.
When I read such books, I'm not even impressed by the contents, but also feel very sleepy. This is a natural way of saving myself. If I suddenly understand those books, I'm sure that I'll feel a great pleasure, but it's also expected a great depression that is the effect of sudden awareness. Because I understand suddenly, I wouldn't participate for my stupidity before. My deep consciousness (unconsciousness) knows everything about me and it doesn't hope my mind to be destroyed, so I guess, it sends me a sleep signal.

After I understand this function of the mind, I no longer felt the need to push myself to understand everything all at once. When the time come, I understand the things once I denied. Until them, I just need to work on the things which is right in front of me.

The Sky

I like the sky,
especially the one with beautiful deep-blue.
When I look up and gaze the deep-blue sky, I often imagine the Space beyond it. Then, I think about the many more unknown things in this universe, and become humble.

Blowing a Kiss

To image blowing a kiss to someone you feel uncomfortable is a very effective way to deal the relationship.
It may be a little hard method for you, but if you really tried, you'll feel lighter and freer.

A Twitterer

Today, when I felt little tired for studying Math, I noticed a beautiful singing of a twitterer.
I was really moved by its voice. I thought, "What a beautiful song... The bird really has such a beautiful voice." I was really really moved by its song, so can't help to thank to the creator of the bird.

p.s.
To the Pope, John Paul II, I express my deep and sincere gratitude.
By deep respect and prayers to others, I learned how to love not only the people around me but also the people who are far away from me.

Children

Today's word;
"Children are the hopes of our future."

Only Light Is There

Yesterday, I completely forgot about writing a post.
Anyway, this is today's word.
"Only light is there."

Beautiful Sound

Today, I went violin lesson which is now held in every other week.
So I heard my teacher's violin for the first time after my ears became somewhat keen (I wrote about my favorite CD's breathing sound, right?). I was so surprised for her violin. I have never thought her sound was that beautiful. I now knew that I really wasn't unable to catch the sound ... But you know what? This might be only a tip of an iceberg. There might be more and more in the world of sound. I can search treasures bit by bit in this goldmine. It's fun.
(Today, I also got only 45 % of my Math's second midterm, and I was deeply devastated for the mark and premonition of failure of this course. But this beautiful violin sound and the joy of discovering gave me a big pity.)

Few Hours of Blue Sky

Today, we had few hours of blue sky, and I heard birds' singing at evening.
My African violet is flowering.
Nature is beautiful.

For Pope John Paul II

One of the most precious person on Earth, Pope John Paul II went to heaven.
I'm not a Catholic and even not a Christian, but I deeply respected him, so I play for his happiness at there.
He was one of the man who worked so hard for Love and world peace.

Both

Like I couldn't love myself completely (because I have some aspects which I don't like), I won't be able to love someone completely.
There are assets and shortcomings in a person. So,I don't have to be hasty to love them all.