An Inner Child

Somewhere in my mind, there existed a very bossy person.
She was so bossy.
She wanted to win against everybody, and wanted to control everybody. She never wanted to lose and so refused other's help completely.

Why was she so bossy?
It's because she had already knew that how weak her real part was. She knew it unconsciously, and was trying to protect that part instinctively. She thought that if she wore a bossy mask and hid that weakness, nobody would accuse it.
Her plan succeeded in some level, but then, instead of being accused, she fell in the hell of loneliness.

She was a stubborn three-year-old child in mind.
She didn't know how she had already been accepted and been loved by so many others.

When I found her, she was hiding herself behind the door, but when I smiled, she slowly showed up and came near. Now she is smiling happily, and playing around me.

When I first saw her, I swore to myself that; I'll never accuse her, I'll never let her alone, and I'll be always near to her.

This was the new beginning in my life.